This year, first day of my official school day starts in Temasek poly, i met my classmate and saw this particular girl ; find her pretty attractive. As the days goes by, i get to know more about her. She's a girl with sunshine laugh, at the same time also likes to say sigh.
A girl which would craves for ice-cream during rainy days.
A girl whom would laugh at her own jokes before others laugh at it.
In short, a special girl.
I once asked her to be my girlfriend during mid-Mays and she was shocked of my random question, but she didnt reject nor agree. I remember there was a day i took a bus with her to Toa payoh as i'm going there to collect my tailor-made pants, and we didnt really talked to each other on the bus. Upon alighting, im thinking to myself, how a failure i am, only we're at the bus yet didnt take the initiative to talk to her. When we alighted, she offered to accompany me to go collect my pants together. I'm really happy at that time and was glad that i aint much of a failure afterall. While waiting for her reply, i've got closer to my good girl friend then her. i talk more to her then the special girl.
Slowly and slowly, the special girl had treated my colder and colder. I'm sad, but this is due to my own action. We talk lesser in school, also text lesser. To a extent when i'm re taking my F&B sup paper ( i failed my F&B main paper ) , i tried to ask her out again to coach me in the F&B, but she makes it clearly that she wont go out with me alone, unless there's other people around. From that point of time, i knew that she's a girl that i would never able to get it.
Recently, she had stop giving me cold shoulders. We went to drink with our class mates @ Kovan , and after that walked her. Really enjoy those slow moments, and finally understands why people would hope for time to stop at some moment. I really wish time would just freezed up, and we'll be sitting down and enjoy the beautiful sky all night. At the point of time, i knew i had fall for her, but this time round, i've more demerit points then before,
i club,
i drink,
i smoke,
i gamble.
She is like the direct opposite of me ; Day & Night. But she knows all my bad and she dont seems to mind it. Which makes me even more certain that i would definately hurt her, if i were to get with her.
I should
i would
i will try to get away from her, she's a good girl which deserve someone whom will treat her 1000x better than i'll. Share all her joys and sorrow with her and never ever hurt her.
I love her.
20/11/09 - she agreed to be my girlfriend :D
22/11/09- in a bus, at first she went to sit with budi instead of me:(
23/11/09- she said SHE LOVE ME. woooohoooo!! i always hoped a girl i like would take the initiative to copy study notes for me. she did it today. thanks :]
24/11/09- Surprise turned out to be something bad. im sry
25/11/09- Whats the weird feeling arouse in my heart. ?.?
26/11/09- we ate cup noodle, drink strawberry milk tgt in my car , its kind of romantic actually:) my cheeky gf kissed me. :D
12/12/09- she call me darling for the first time in our text msg : ]
14/12/09- 2nd dating ! went iluma to catch new moon, followed by chilling at marina barrage.
16/12/09- i did something bad. a typical jerk. i made her cry.
17/12/09- its really hard trying to keep a distance away from u, esp when u're so near me. what if i hurt u again? i must remind myself to maintain the 30cm gap. sigh
18/12/09- eating kfc with u :) i like it
19/12/09- i constantly think of you in the club, maybe no more club as im already attached :)
20/12/09- we webcamm for the first time today with mine and her fren around . And i think she's doing smth for me over there. happy 1month fwf !
21/12/09- Avatar with her at cathay and a small little nice SNOWMAN gift!
24/12/09- its xmas eve. and i'm sick. i thinking of buying u a ....... :) but whats ur leg size?! hmmm
25/12/09- u said u expected i would hav nothing to say nor to comment about the things that i've that. its because i choose not to say. Whats the definition of ' Touch' ?
You played games with ur fren and let them carry you and its nth wrong abt it
I went club and dance with girls which makes me sounds so wrong that i cannot even defence for myself. You said u trust me and therefore i hav my limit over there, and we're just dancing nothing more. And most likely i gotta wait 1 full year till u're 18 den u will understand this concept if u're going to club.
Usually im a person with my own strong logic and will present my view to the opposite if our opinion are different. Maybe u're special and i knew if i told u this it would hurt u even further but this is my point of view. I've my limits and dont intend of going there anymore as i also felt strange touchin another girl. So.. i will just keep quiet about it, im not angry or what .
26/12/09- if one day i dont take the initiative text/call u. would u call me? :(
27/12/09- u're the 1st girl that i cook porridge for :)
28/12/09- Thanks for waking me up girl
30/12/09- in mircoecons u manage to wake me up again ;) !
03/01/10- im out with you today to shop for my bday gift. LOL. thanks
04/01/10- we're okay at the afternoon, till night......
05/01/10- BAD tuesday. i dont like it
06/01/10- i just hope im different, maybe im asking for too much.
08/01/10- thanks for the birthday surprise dear, thanks for the wallet
20/01/10- happy 2nd month. our ice cream journey turns to be somewhere eco-friendly :)
24/01/10- fast pace. pace too fast
31/01/10- saying sigh right in my face is like me smoking in ur face
02/02/10- i've been thinking every morning and night before i sleep and after i wake up. About you saying our pace is too fast. I've love you more and more each day, and wants you more and more. if this is not the way u want it, the least i can do is to really constantly remind myself not to get too close with you. you have no idea wad a kiss will lead too and i noe. if u realise, now i've tried not to kiss you in the lift when sending you home, leaving a gap in between of us. i'm feelin miserable, infront standing is a girl i loved most, and need to control myself not to get too near of her.
But I will not turn back anymore.
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Wei Jie
18 this year
& Don't wear nerdy spec, I might fall for you(: